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Sat, Jan. 31st, 2004 05:30 pm
The Falling Rain

Summed up right now, I feel like shit. I feel trapped in myself. I've spent almost the entire day searching for a place where I can relax and rest peacefully. So far, I haven't found one.

I can't rest in my room because, in a sense, it's not really my room. I share it with my roommate. The only way my room would be peaceful to me is if I were alone in it.

Outside, at this moment, isn't that great of a place, either. I absolutely love the rain and I find peace in it, but there's no place on campus where I can be in the rain, alone, and not get horribly wet or frozen. So, I've been basically going between the dorm lounges, my room, and outside just wandering.

I just feel really shitty right now. I feel like I have no peace and no where I can go to simply rest. I'm lucky that at this moment I have the room to myself, but it's not a very bit comfort. I spend too much time in here anyway to feel at peace here.

All I'm hearing is "wait"... I've known this word for far too long. This has been a word that has stalked my life for as long as I can remember. I crave resolution, but I'm told to wait.

Current Mood: restless restless
Current Music: "..." -A want of nothing