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Tue, Apr. 2nd, 2002 08:17 pm
Oh, Shit!!!

I think this may be the most pissy thing that I've had to deal with in a very long time, simply because I haven't had to deal with it in eleven years (at least not directly)...

Sometime soon, I have to write a letter to my father back in Norway. If you know my history, you could clearly tell why this is a major problem for me. The only reason this is a problem now is because they (my family over in Norway) are starting to get really pushy. They are in contact with Jenny (at least Terje is) and they're pressing her to get me and my brother to talk to them. Our family has been avoiding the issue for eleven years.

Anyway, I've made a decision. As long as Bjorn is alive, I will never see him again. And in order to protect this decision, I have to contact Terje myself and tell him. I have to make clear my intentions and I'll have to make it strong. I know that I will be severing a piece of myself off, but it's a cancerous and dangerous piece, so it needs to be done.

What's worse is that I think the only reason they're trying to contact us is because Bjorn is getting a lot older and they want him to go out with a "clear" image. Either way, I'm not going to let him. He made a really bad decision years ago and he has to deal with the consequences.

I've also come to another conclusion... I'll forgive the bastard. I figure that because Jesus took all the sins to the cross and then forgave it all, I can't leave one hanging loose. I have to forgive him, but he still has to live with what he's done. I can forgive, but I can't forget.

I'm not sure when I going to draft the letter. I still have to give it a little bit of time. All I know is that I need to do it.

God help him.

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