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Thu, Sep. 27th, 2007 01:21 am

I had a scary revelation today... well, yesterday. In class, we were watching Schindler's List. I happened to be paying attention to the music (big surprise) when I had the sudden horror of realization that the theme I was hearing, and so loved, was not very much unlike one of the themes I had used in my competition piece that I sent off to Bellevue. The moment I got home, I rushed and opened up my file and listened to the playback. To my relief, while I did indeed get my inspiration from the theme of Schindler's List, I had modified it in my memory, such that it could not be called plagarism. Thank God my intervals were not correct or I would have been in some serious trouble. However, I'm pretty sure that the judges might notice the similarity (yes, I know I mixed a concrete with an indeterminate, so sue me). Hopefully, I won't get docked for that.

A few days ago, I checked to see if there was a confirmation on my package's delivery. It arrived and was confirmed, so I know they have it. I've yet to hear anything back, but I honestly don't expect much until the winners are announced. We'll see what happens. I'd like to think that I put a pretty solid piece in, but insecurity is part of being an artist. The better you get, the more you realize that there are a lot more people who are better than you and, compared to the number of people that are better than you, there's not a whole lot of opportunities to fill. Basically, it comes down to two or three things: One, that those who are better than you are doing something else instead; two, that those who are better than you and not doing something else were too lazy to turn anything in; and, three, that those who are better than you, not doing something else, and aren't lazy have hopefully had their packages lost in the mail. Slightly cynical, I know. Slightly mean-spirited, yes. But, in truth, it's not fair to wish that on others because you know that they might be wishing exactly the same thing of those who are better than them. It's always a struggle for everyone. If you're beat, you're beat. Just got to try harder next time. After all, that's how they got better than you in the first place. They got beat and just kept trying.

(By the way, in case you weren't paying attention, this applies to everything one does in life.)

In the meantime, I've just got to wait to see and keep going with what I'm doing. Either way, I've got a pretty cool piece out of it. I'll be sharing it once I find out the results of the contest.

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Current Mood: contemplative contemplative
Current Music: "Theme from Schindler's List" -John Williams


Fri, Sep. 28th, 2007 02:33 pm (UTC)

You sound like my mum.;) She always told us that, no matter how good we are at something, there is always someone else who is just as good, if not better. Just a helpful piece of advise to keep us from getting to cocky.;)
Praying it goes well for you!