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Fri, Apr. 21st, 2006 10:45 pm
Banquet? Anyone?

To put it plainly, I am extremely frustrated with Banquet this year... Normally, I don't go unless I have a date (I enjoy dances in general more when there's someone I can specifically pay attention to). This time, I really want to go, but finding a date has been a horrendous experience. I asked nearly eleven women (the first question I asked was whether or not they were going and if they already had a date) and every single one of them either already has a date or isn't going at all.

First off, it makes me feel like a fool looking everywhere for a date. Secondly, it makes me feel like there's something hideously wrong with me that no one wants to go with me. Thirdly, it makes me stressed because I don't want to go alone. Fourthly, I kind of just want to cry. I already paid for my own ticket, so I'll have to go, but I barely feel like I want to anymore.

I'm so tired of this. I'm tired of trying to figure out who would be comfortable going with me and who I'd feel comfortable going with. I'm tired of constantly being rejected (even if it's not intentional). I'm tired of searching and offering up myself only to find empty air and silence. I'm tired.

Where is she? Where is my knightess in shimmering armor? Where is my princess?...

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Current Mood: annoyed annoyed
Current Music: "Think of Me" -Andrew Lloyd Webber


Sat, Apr. 22nd, 2006 07:45 am (UTC)

I love Andrew Lloyd Webber! With that said, I always hated that process before banquets. I went with a date for my first one and had a horrendous time. I didn't know him at all, and neither of us were comfortable with each other. After that I always just went with a group of friends...but then always sort of felt like I was missing out on something. *sigh* I doubt I'm being helpful at all...but yeah, I hope you have lots of fun however it works out!

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Sat, Apr. 22nd, 2006 09:24 am (UTC)

I'm sorry you're having such a rough time friend. I feel bad, I think we would have had a blast at Banquet. If you decide to not go, like to sell your ticket to someone, let me know cuz you would have fun hanging out with us tomorrow night. If you go, have fun anyway!

Fri, Apr. 28th, 2006 07:26 pm (UTC)

I know how you feel. I felt that, too. But I tried to remember that people today often dont get married until they are 25-30. (I was 26.) And once you meet "Ms. Right" it can happen very fast--engaged after 6 months, married after 5-6 more months! So try to keep in mind (though I know it's hard) that you still have a lot of time left before you really have cause to be concerned! And when it happens, everything could change in practically the blink of an eye! :)

In the meantime, enjoy being you and people (women!) will notice that. Also, have your friends hook you up to meet other women friends (not nec dates). There IS something to be said about the numbers increasing your odds. At lesat that's what they say on all the TV advice shows I've seen!