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Wed, Sep. 14th, 2005 10:22 pm
Thoughts and Feelings

I'm going to try and separate, in a clear and distinctive matter, the things that I think and the things that I feel... (keep in mind that my thoughts are not necessarily meant to be a counter to my feelings, but rather that both are going on at the same time)...

I Feel...:

  • ...like, socially, I'm fishing in an empty pond.

  • ...like everything I try to do ends up going nowhere because no one is interested in developing a stronger relationship with me.

  • ...like any social interaction I have is completely (for the most part) initiated by me.

  • ...isolated and neglected.

  • ...depressed because I am lacking in physical touch.

  • ...like I'm going numb because no one is willing to be close to me physically (mind you, I don't mean sexually).

  • I Think...:

  • ...I need to work on my social skills in order to get any response from people.

  • ...that I need to re-evaluate the scale at which I value my social interactions.

  • ...I need to be more assertive about my relationships, even though I'm deathly afraid of crossing boundaries.

  • ...that I need to consider that a lot of what I'm feeling may not be accurate.

  • ...that I need to stop worrying about it.

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    Current Mood: frustrated frustrated
    Current Music: "Prelude to Morning" -Kenneth Edward Keyn


    Thu, Sep. 15th, 2005 05:48 am (UTC)

    Kenny, I think we need to hang out more. >(

    Every Friday, we have a tradition of going to either Sushi or Hakattamon, right outside our school. Hakattamon doesn't open till about 5, so we usually just hang around Coffee People until that time.

    This week it's Hakattamon.

    Anytime you ever want to hang out, I'm more than willing to. :D

    Oh, and I need your cell or home phone number, too. ;_; I don't have it!

    Thu, Sep. 15th, 2005 07:37 am (UTC)
    we should talk some time...

    I might be taking up a job on Thursday nights up in Portland... I don't know what your Thursday afternoon or nights are like, but I would love to see you as much as possible.

    And I want you to know that I like you. :)
    Hang in there.