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Old Journal 44 - Abadoss' Mind
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Thu, Mar. 11th, 1999 06:12 pm
Old Journal 44

Today is Thursday, March 11, 1999. This is getting very annoying. My entire profile has turned against me. Word keeps screwing up. I mean, I’m trying to finish a project that I already have two extensions on because of this stupid system and I have no way of fixing it. I can’t finish it because the system decided it didn’t like my project. I’m getting very pissed right now. I can’t change fonts. I can’t change the size of the fonts. I can’t do anything without the stupid computer getting an unsolvable error. It’s getting on my nerves. My desktop settings keep getting errors. I’m about ready to throw my system away and start over. I can’t stop looking at her, looking for her, and trying to impress her. I can’t get Kristy out of my head. I don’t know why. I don’t know how. I don’t know anything. I just know I can’t stop being infatuated with Kristy. It’s gone so far that during English I was able to find her name on a list for chewing gum in class today. I’m scared. I’m scared. I was going to talk about Maggie’s attraction to Mike, but I think it can wait. Anyway, I’ve lost track of how long…never mind. Wait! Even scarier, I have kept track of how long I’ve been infatuated with Kristy! I’m depressed because she’s not on the same bus as me now! I…I…continuously keep looking for her! I’m depressed if she’s not at school! I CAN’T STOP THINKING ABOUT HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It’s…it’s…it’s just…driving me insane!!! I’ve spent countless sleepless nights before when I didn’t know about the problems in dating. GOD, GIVE ME STRENGTH!!!!!!!! Where is my life going? Down the toilet or is it actually going somewhere? What is going on here? Why is this happening to me?!? HELP ME, LORD!!!!!!!!! Well, now that I have screamed your ears off, I’ll be saying good night. Good night at 6:12.