So what am I saying? Could it be that any searching I do now is ultimately futile simply because I am not ready for the perfect woman? Then I have to ask myself, would I ever be ready? And further I must ask, would I be prepared to never find her? Could I live a life without her?
So far, I've managed to live a fairly solitary life (if not in physicality, then definitely emotionally). I know that I am capable of being alone for a very long period of time with relatively little damage. I can live in an emotional desert.
But here's the problem: I can live without people because I hope that one day I will not have to.
Can I live in the knowledge that I will never find her? Can I live a life alone?