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Hear My Silence - Abadoss' Mind
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Sun, Aug. 29th, 2004 04:30 pm
Hear My Silence

My soul seeks solace that it cannot find here
And in all this my path begins to veer
A torrent of tears, a wall of fears
In my mind it feels like the end is near

Though I know in fact that it's not real
It's hard not to react to what I feel
My mind says one thing, my heart another
All in search of my one true lover

I want my ways to change so I can live like I'm normal
But I cannot arrange to break free of formal
In my heart wells hatred, not for someone else
The pain and anger are directed at myself

I'm angry because I fail at what I want most
When others sail and ride past on coast
For all my strengths, I lack so much
All things normal feel so out of touch

I want to say to all, "See the pain in my eyes!"
"Can't you see me fall? Don't wait 'til I die!"
"How loud must I cry silently before you'll see?"
"How long must I wait until you notice me?"

But in silence I wait and wait in pain
Contemplating fate and hoping for gain
I pray for answers and get more questions
I ask for help and get lousy suggestions

Hear my silence...

Current Mood: melancholy melancholy
Current Music: "Hope and Memory" -Howard Shore