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Thu, Feb. 12th, 2004 05:05 pm
Working... Technically...

It seems that I've been doing most of my journaling here at work. I just find it kind of interesting. It would seem that most of my entries would resemble the boredom of each shift, but I guess I'm able to retain the stress of other situations.

Speaking of other stresses, I talked to Hannah last night (that's not the stressful part) and it turned out to be rather interesting. I'm not going to go into very much detail, simply because I can't remember all of it. Kinda makes me wish that AIM would automatically keep logs of conversations like MSN Messenger and ICQ do. Anyway...

She asked me what plans I had for Saturday, which happens to be Valentine's Day. As would be expected of me, I replied that I had no plans. Then she asked me if there was anything that I want to be doing on Saturday. I respond by saying that it would be nice to have a date. She then asks if I'd decided to date, to which I respond that I haven't made a decision yet.

Following that, we start talking about the pros and cons of dating and, in her opinion, why I should just go out there and date. As my journal is riddled with my thoughts about this issue, I can say that it's not so easy for me to do something simply for the sake of doing it (with an exception of music). Dating (in the way I use the word) is not something I can just jump into.

However, as I thought about it more later on, I realize that there's a lot of truth in what she had to say. For anyone else, this would be absolutely practical advice. And while I agree with her on what she had to say, at this point in my life, I can't use it yet. If I could just jump right into it, I would. But I can't yet. I need to prepare myself.

So, how do I do that? That's where I've been hung up for so long. How would I transition myself into a dating atmosphere? Granted, I would probably not follow the mainstream idea of dating. Dating for entertainment is not something I'm willing to do. I would try to use it as a tool to build very strong relationships. I would consider the process as looking for a potential wife qualities, but I don't think I equate dating to marriage at this point.

So, have I decided to date? I don't know. I'm leaning toward it, but I still have my reservations about it. I know this kinda comes out a bit anti-climactic, but what else am I going to say? I'm not going to rush into something because I feel a certain way. I may want to figure out how to live with my emotions, but I'm probably still going to make decisions based on logic and deliberate reasoning. It's what I know.

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Current Music: "Give Us Clean Hands" -Charlie Hall

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xamgis
xamgis
Chris
Thu, Feb. 12th, 2004 07:34 pm (UTC)

Well...on the dating thing, I'm just going to say, do what feels right to you.

One the AIM logging and whatnot, try downloading DeadAIM: http://www.jdennis.net/DeadAIM/about.php


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abadoss
abadoss
Kenneth Edward Keyn
Thu, Feb. 12th, 2004 07:53 pm (UTC)
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I'm a little skeptical of add-ons for AIM. The last time I tried to download an add-on, it wouldn't let me use it because of my firewall and it loaded a bunch of spyware that I had to manually delete. Otherwise, I probably would. :P


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fedupgirl
Fedupgirl
Thu, Feb. 12th, 2004 08:57 pm (UTC)

Well, when I was dating (as in, not just one person), I was looking for someone to have a meaningful relationship with. I tried the not-meaningful kind and didn't like those so much, but they were really, really valuable in helping me to figure out what I want in a partner. If I had never had those less significant relationships (and I am in no way suggesting you repeat ANY of my stupid choices, heck no)

What I mean is, if you aren't quite sure what you want, try going on group dates (as in just doing things with your friends bringing a girl along), or go bowling or something. or just have lunch. The point as I see it of dating is to pretty much audition potentials. If you like a girl but never spend time alone with her, how do you know if she has a couple awful quirks you'll never be able to stand? So, have a first date. You DON"T have to ever have a second. Who knows? You might actually meet your wife that way!


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abadoss
abadoss
Kenneth Edward Keyn
Thu, Feb. 12th, 2004 11:33 pm (UTC)
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I already had a Kings of Chaos account, but decided to let go of it because I didn't have the time to manage it. However, I'd prefer if you not try to recruit on my journal.


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fedupgirl
Fedupgirl
Fri, Feb. 13th, 2004 02:12 pm (UTC)
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um... what?


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abadoss
abadoss
Kenneth Edward Keyn
Fri, Feb. 13th, 2004 04:33 pm (UTC)
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Response to someone posting a recruiting link for Kings of Chaos. It's an online game.


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nadayz
Branden
Sun, Feb. 15th, 2004 04:48 pm (UTC)
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i'm sorry about that, i should have asked, i like you layout though

~Branden~


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abadoss
abadoss
Kenneth Edward Keyn
Sun, Feb. 15th, 2004 05:29 pm (UTC)
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No worries. Thanks.


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