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Wed, Mar. 5th, 2003 06:53 pm
Counting...

So I'm a little bored at the moment and I put my energy to a slightly creative (although slighty misguided) use... I counted how many times I wrote about Hannah. Including this entry and possibly another that will be comin gup shortly, the total is at 25 entries in which she is directly related. That's a full quarter of the journal entries I've made, in total, on my livejournal... I really invested a lot of emotion into Hannah. I only wish that I could have used that energy elsewhere...

Anyway, that future post that I'll be making is going to be related to the upcoming Prom Committee trip that's happening this up-coming Monday. Yeah... we're both on Prom Committee... and it rips me apart. It's still so hard to be anywhere near her. I can almost feel my heart skip several beats everytime she wanders into my view (which seems far too often...). I suppose it will force me to deal with my emotions, but it's so damn painful. I would rather not be around her ever again. At least that way, I would be able to handle my emotions a little easier, or if not, just forget them (as much as would be able to).

Anyway, not going to much into that... Needless to say, I'm going to need some time to think about things and get my focus. There's no way I'm going on that trip unfocused!

That's enough for now...

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Current Mood: worried worried
Current Music: "They All Laughed" -George and Ira Gershwen

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rosemilk
rosemilk
The Childlike Empress
Wed, Mar. 5th, 2003 10:34 pm (UTC)
Skirting the issue..

It just cracks me up that you're on prom commitee. I can't ever convince you to come to dances, and here you are planning one. And I go to every single one of them, even when I'm really sick and have to drag myself in under a mountain of make-up to cover up the feverish paleness, sunken eyes, or whatever, and you wouldn't catch me dead on any of the dance commitees.

Life never ceases to delight me like that.


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gnomeundrwrlint
gnomeundrwrlint
Laura
Thu, Mar. 6th, 2003 03:46 pm (UTC)
Re: Skirting the issue..

*smiles* I'm on dance committee as well as Prom Committee... The people on it annoy me, seriously. I'm going to keep the other comments to myself :P...


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