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Tue, Jan. 28th, 2003 07:30 pm
At the Turn of the Tide and the March of Time

So... I'm 18 now. Today was/is my birthday. I'm now legally responsible for the actions I take and I have the ability to vote, get drafted, and purchase cigarettes and porn (though I highly doubt that I'll do either of the latter two... actually I can say with definity that I won't!)...

Anyway, my mom has always treated me like an adult, so it's no different now that I am a legal adult now. Responsibility is has not been a foreign concept to me before, so why should it be all new now?

I am glad, though. I feel like I have the ability to get closer to the age that I've always felt. While I may have issues with the person I am today, I am proud of who I am becoming. There are still many steps ahead of me and I have just begun, in the grand scheme of things, but I do feel somewhat accomplished. I've managed to survive 18 years. That's quite an achievement for me. It's amazing how many times I could have died. And yet, I'm still here! That's a good feeling. A really good feeling.

My day was fairly nice, nothing particular to offset me (at least nothing major). I let people know that it was my birthday, but it wasn't blown out of proportion. There's a part of me that would have wished it were, but, overall, I don't think that would have made me happy.

I'm taking it fairly easy this year (a lot of that is because of money, but whatever). Most likely, I'm not going to do anything majorly big or throw a massive party or anything. I kinda wish I could do something like last year, where I invited a few of my friends and we just hung out. That would be nice, but given the circumstances (with my brother and his family in the house), I don't think it would be practical.

If there's one thing I would have wished for on my birthday, it would be to have reconciliation and resolution. I wish that I could be given the opportunity to be a better friend to people. I wish that people could really understand me. I wish that I could bring some sort of fulfillment to someone else's life. Or if I already have, some visible effect of it. I could wish for money, or computer games, or a car, or money, but when it comes down to it, I can live without all that. I can't live without friends. I wish people could know that.


I decided not to vote this time (more out of physical ability and time restraints) on the Measure 28 ballot. I would have had to come home from school, punch out the chad, get the envelope prepared, and then return to the Beaverton Library to drop it off. Had I the time to have turned it in, I would have voted yes on the measure, but I guess I'll have to hope that someone else voted yes as well.

Current Mood: mellow mellow
Current Music: "Man" -Iona

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ex_juverna886
Candy
Wed, Jan. 29th, 2003 04:39 pm (UTC)

Egads!! I can't believe I didn't comment on this yesteday!

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY, KENNY!


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abadoss
abadoss
Kenneth Edward Keyn
Wed, Jan. 29th, 2003 05:38 pm (UTC)

Thanks. Bold text and all caps appreciated... :P


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