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Fri, Mar. 16th, 2007 07:13 am
A Challenge for You, My Readers

One of the important parts of my development as a human being is feedback. I use it, not as blanket solutions to fix my problems, but as data and suggestions of my reality. I use it as a means of working against something, along with my own perceptions, to determine the nature of my reality. As such, I don't feel I get enough feedback on a regular basis. I'm not entirely sure how to remedy that, but I feel that I might get a little help by issuing a challenge to those that know me - in any regard, whether it be in person or at a distance - to tell me who they know me to be. I ask that you take some time to describe that which you know or think you know of me. Nothing is off-limits, as I've come to learn how to deal with all forms of criticism - though, I'm still working on dealing with praise. :P

Please, this is very important to me, so I ask that you engage this in honesty and buy-in. Thank you.

Current Mood: contemplative contemplative
Current Music: "By and By" -Michael Tippett

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fedupgirl
Fedupgirl
Fri, Mar. 16th, 2007 09:18 am (UTC)
Re: Not pulling punches

You would get more feedback if you were more interesting. Live a little already.


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samhobbits
samhobbits
This is where Maria talks about life
Sat, Mar. 17th, 2007 06:03 am (UTC)

Well, I must say I completely disagree with the other comment, first of all. Feedback is difficult to squeeze out of people, partly I think because we are afraid of offending, and partly because we don't even know ourselves, therefore we aren't qualified to know anyone else. Or that could just be the late night tired ramblings of someone who is currently trying to figure herself out.
Anyway. I think the word I would use to describe you would be "gentleman." Even before we became friends last spring, I was always impressed...not the right word...I guess struck with the way you treat women like they are ladies. Then when I got to know you better I realized that you have more respect for individuals than most people. You work hard to really engage with a person, and it is noticeable. You hold yourself to high standards and seek to use the skills God has given you to your utmost. That said (and I struggle with the same thing I think), I think you tend to anticipate that others strive for the same standards, and are hurt when this is not so. Then this causes further reflection and a reevaluation of who you should be, which leads to further hurt. It definitely isn't a how-can-I-make-them-like-me kind of thing, that isn't what I mean. I'm not sure how to explain it.
I'm fading fast, as it is past my bedtime, or I would try and explain better. Maybe tomorrow better words will come.


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gentledarkness
gentledarkness
No
Sun, Mar. 18th, 2007 06:08 pm (UTC)

Feedback? Unfortunately, the only feedback I can offer to you is my understandings in what I've read from your online journals and from the little bit I remember you at Arts and Communications. I've always found you an interesting and even inspiring person. Your music was wonderful back at ACMA, and knowing that years have passed, my assumption is that you've become an even more outstanding artist. You seem to be a very calm and collected individual, but you're still searching for someone to share yourself with. I would imagine it's tugging at that place deep inside, and that when you do find her, you'll feel complete. You're suffering at the hands of financial instability, facing a job and full-time college to live in the real world. I'm not sure what else to say, what type of feedback were you searching for?


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urthona
urthona
Los
Fri, Mar. 23rd, 2007 05:01 am (UTC)

While our paths have never crossed (which is strange as we existed, knowingly, in the same town for years), I have kept up on your writing. You seem very introspective much of the time.

It seems as though you have made great strides academically and professionally over the past four years. Your music has become better and you have worked your way through college at a steady clip. Many things about you have changed.

But in some ways your writing is the same as it's always been. You still have the same perspective on life and love that you had four years ago. That has not seemed to change. You want to find someone to be with, yet you don't look for that someone. You seem to want your first love to be your only love and, while I understand that desire, that is for fairy tales and the lucky. Most first relationships fail, not due to lack of faith, but simply because people don't really know what they want at first, only what they think they want.

You have grown over the years, from a boy in High School to a man in college. Make sure that everything continues to grow and that you allow it to grow along with you. Don't stifle yourself. Man up and make your life yours.

You're a good guy. You just need some personal evolution.


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