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Mon, Sep. 9th, 2002 04:31 pm
It's That Time Again!

I suppose it was only a matter of time before I spilled my guts again. A lot of things are happening. I'm not sure what to do on a lot of them.


First and foremost on my mind at the moment is the fact that Jason and Jenelle have brought back the family to our house. Together with all FIVE kids will be staying with us for a few months. Now, if history remembers, the last time they were here, my room was brutally occupied and I was forced to go next door to Delia's house. In addition, that was probably the closest I've ever been to having a nervous break down. No need to mention that my grade were plummeting at the time.

Luckily this time, I get to keep my room (as a matter of fact it's off limits to almost everyone) and I am determined to maintain my grades (mainly so I can stay in the school). It'll be rough, but I know I'll be okay this time assuming certain lines aren't crossed. Since I'm at school most of the day, anyway, it won't be that big of a deal. The living room looks like crap now, but I'm not going to stress over it.


It was eminent that I would bring up this topic, but... Hannah. It still pains me so much to see her. It's so hard to forget those feelings, especially while she's still there. It's horrible for me. She's starting to open up a little, but I think that's more out of courtesy than anything else. I'm still blocking as much contact as possible because I know I'm not ready to face her just yet. What's worse is that I'm starting to see only the good qualities again... and that frightens me. I don't want to fall into the trap again. I've hashed this out so much before, I don't think I need to explain further.


This is more of an interesting side note, more than anything. Over the last couple days, Karen's started opening up to me a little bit more. Interaction is picking up again. I find that really cool. As is with all my crushes, I still have feelings for her, but I want to try just allowing a solid friendship to grow naturally. I'm not going to overly push, but I'm not going to back down, either. She's always been a cool person to me, and even in times when things were iffy, I could always find something admirable about her. She has a lot of good qualities, and she has a lot of bad qualities. That's all of us, though. Her good qualities seem to out-weigh the bad ones. Maybe I'm dreaming again, I don't know. I'll try to avoid buying her a necklace in Korea for now...

Current Mood: drained drained
Current Music: "The Star-Spangled Banner" -Francis Scott Key

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ex_juverna886
Candy
Mon, Sep. 9th, 2002 07:59 pm (UTC)

Uccch. House guests = Fate of Ultimate Doom. Although I'm sure it's worse when you have people rummaging around in your room, constantly in your space, et cetera. Good luck maintaining your sanity. :O

(Of course, you knew I had nothing to say on the romance front. Don't take it personally, or anything.) :D


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Kenneth Edward Keyn
Tue, Sep. 10th, 2002 12:09 am (UTC)

Well, I wasn't expecting anything as far as that was concerned... I am a little surprised you had nothing to say about Karen, though...


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