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Wed, Mar. 2nd, 2005 01:04 pm
An Open Wound

I feel somewhat insulted as a musician today. In chorale, we went over the Kyrie I wrote and people seemed very uninterested in it and complained about some of the things I had written in. I wouldn't have minded so much if it weren't for the fact that we had already addressed the problems before and no one seemed to remember. To add salt to my wound, when we began working on Jeremy's piece, everyone instantly became enthusiasic and eager to start it.

To add lemon to an already salted wound, the piece is far more difficult and has quite a few big problems that haven't been worked out yet, since it's still a work in progress. The parts are way too high for almost everyone, the intervals are confusing and difficult, voice-leading rules are all but ignored, the lyrics are poorly entered with syllables being divided where they really shouldn't be, and it's just not finished. Yet, they were far happier doing that than my piece.

Don't get me wrong, Jeremy has a lot of good things in his piece, but it still needs to be worked on. The piece I wrote, I made sure that it was, for the most part, complete before I presented it to the choir.

To reopen a lemony-salted wound, when Doc asked everyone to give Jeremy and I a hand for our works, we got the weakest and wimpest applause I've ever heard. I just felt very unappreciated as a composer and I also felt that Jeremy was unappreciated as well. It just did not set me in a very good mood. It made me feel like I never want to write anything for the chorale ever again. Chances are that I will, but the feeling is not very pleasant.

Current Mood: irritated irritated
Current Music: "Gloria (Ver. 1.03)" -Kenneth Keyn

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burritoforleah
Leah
Wed, Mar. 2nd, 2005 10:18 pm (UTC)

Hello. I don't think I know you. You go to ACMA? At least, you went to ACMA last year?

Sorry if you don't want strangers posting on your jounrnal. I understand. ^^


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abadoss
abadoss
Kenneth Edward Keyn
Wed, Mar. 2nd, 2005 11:08 pm (UTC)

I graduated from ACMA in 2003


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burritoforleah
Leah
Thu, Mar. 3rd, 2005 04:01 am (UTC)

Cool. I shadowed in 2003. So I might have seen you.
What's it like to be 20? (Since I just read your profile and it said you were 20)


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abadoss
abadoss
Kenneth Edward Keyn
Thu, Mar. 3rd, 2005 06:26 am (UTC)

20's not much different than 14, except you get a few more things figured out. There's no magical transformation that everyone always looks for. You just have to learn to take responsibility for yourself and the sooner you do, the more successful you will be.


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burritoforleah
Leah
Thu, Mar. 3rd, 2005 02:31 pm (UTC)

I'll keep that in mind.


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fedupgirl
Fedupgirl
Thu, Mar. 3rd, 2005 06:28 am (UTC)

Perhaps what is lacking is distance? All these people know you, and Jeremy. It sounds like, from what I have read here, that he is simply better liked, or preferred somehow, and that shows in how they treat his music. I would suggest shopping out your music to local choirs, like universty choirs or high schools. It might be very interesting to have a very good choir somewhere else sing through your piece a couple of times and then give you feedback. That way, it would be unbiased by people's personal opinions of you or jeremy. Even more interesting would be to see what a choir teacher does with it if you give t to them and ask them to teach it how it looks like it out to be done. then you would get the added benefit of being once remove and seeing if your instructions were clear enough.

Whichever way it goes, good luck!


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