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Thu, Dec. 2nd, 2004 03:03 pm
What Do I Believe? Part 1...

This week has been really frantic for me. Everything is due and I have so little time to do it with concerts and rehearsals all over the place. My hope is that I'll be able to get some rest, but that's a bit unlikely since there's plenty more that I have left to do.

I've been thinking a little more about life in general. I often wonder about why I believe certain things that I believe and what I should believe that I have yet to find faith in. That's not to say that I don't believe in anything or that the things that I do believe in aren't worth merit, but rather that I really have to come to the understanding of my beliefs on my own. I need to be able to believe what I believe regardless of what happens outside of me. In the same right, what I believe should hold firm against reason. Believing irrationally in something that is obviously untrue (like if I were to believe that I am actually George Washington) isn't going to help my life or the lives of others (except perhaps for humor value). My beliefs need to be solid in themselves and against the world.

That being said, what do I believe? Like a good philosopher, I must start with René Descartes:
"Cogito ergo sum"... (I think, therefore I am).
I believe that my faith must be personal and my own.
I believe that faith is not blind.
I also believe in God and His presence in my life.
I believe that I am saved by grace and that it is all the more reason why I am responsible for my own actions, thoughts, and words.
I believe that I am responsible to humanity in what I do and who I am.
I believe that I am responsible to myself in what I do and who I am.
I believe that my life has purpose and that I have free will.
I also believe that God has seen my life and knows what I will do before I do it.
I believe that I am in a constant state of choice and that my life is the result of choice after countless choice and that my reality exists because I chose it.
However, I also believe that God planned my life and directs what I do.
I believe that He is the source of all things good and that He is omnipresent and omnipotent.
I believe His Son was sent to Earth to die for humanities sins and rise from the grave to demonstrate His ultimate power.
I believe in eternity and the reality of temporal existance.
I therefore believe that God always was, is, and will be.
I believe that God is Love.
I believe in the power of Love.
I believe in the sanctity and wholeness of Love.
I believe that I am called to Love.
Etc...

Now, why do I believe these things? Do I believe them because someone else told me so? Do I believe them because they make sense? Or do I believe them because I have found solidarity in my faith? I wish I could, without reserve, say the latter, but how do I know? Any philosopher will tell you that all reason begins with doubt. That's not to say total and utter rejection, like Friedrich Nietzsche or Karl Marx would suggest, but rather that it's starting from scratch. One must start from the place where there is that which is unchanging (the Greek "atom" - that which cannot be divided). That is why I say that faith is not blind. So, what is unchanging? That I exist, as Descartes states.

Since I exist, what else exists? I believe God does. Why? (St. Augustine of Hippo might help here) A stone exists, but is not alive and does not reason. An animal exists and is alive, but it too does not reason. However, a human is exists, is alive, and is capable of reason. These three classes can be further explored. Existance is like the body in which I live in - the corpreal. My senses are indications that I am living. I can taste or smell, touch or see, or hear. These senses are able to judge and determine what goes on in my body. They are instantly in tune with the functions of my body. My inner sense judges my senses and determines when one is functioning and satisfactory and when one is not functioning and needs adjustment (such as knowing when my eyes are closed because there is no light and opening them because I need to see). This too is an indication of being alive, for animals have this sense as well. However, my ability to reason oversees my inner sense in that I am able to interpret and understand the information gathered by my inner sense and therefore able to understand the world in which I live in.

It stands to reason that the whole is greater than it's parts, so understanding is greater than living and living is greater than existance. This is because one cannot understand if one is not alive and one cannot be alive if one doesn't exist. Since one who understands must also be alive and in existance, that one is greater than that that only lives and exists, just as that which is alive must also be in existance, making it greater than that which simply exists.

Now, my reasoning is prone to mistake and error. But I can only say this because I am placing my reason against Truth (the universal notion of it). Truth however is unchanging because I compare my reasoning against it and understanding is subject to it. Therefore Truth is greater than my understanding. Now, if there is anything above Truth, which Truth is subject to, then that thing must be God. But if there is anything above that, then it must be God, for God is that which is not subject to anything higher. However, if Truth has nothing higher, then Truth itself is God.

If nothing is higher than God, then He must be perfect. If He's perfect, then whatever He does is good. If He is good then everything that comes from Him is good and since all is subject to Him, since nothing is higher, than all good comes from Him.

Since there is nothing above God, then He is omnipotent and by being omnipotent, He must be omnipresent. If He is omnipotent and omnipresent, then He must have significant and ultimate influence on my life. If He has ultimate influence on my life, then He is in control of it and already knows what I will do and directs me in the path I should go.

If I believe Truth and God to exist, then what is Truth? I believe Truth is Love. And because I believe Truth is Love, I therefore believe God is Love. And because all is subject to God and I am as well, I believe that I am called to Love because that which I am subject to is Love. If God is Love and God is good, then Love must be good as well. If God is perfect and God is Love, then Love too is perfect. Since Love is perfect, it is holy and worthy of value. Since it is worthy of value, its sanctity is utmost.

I'll have to finish up later...

Current Mood: contemplative contemplative
Current Music: "..." -Philosophical stuff running through my head...

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Bethany
Fri, Dec. 3rd, 2004 04:00 am (UTC)
as always, it is a pleasure to read your Journal

~awesomeness~


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abadoss
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Kenneth Edward Keyn
Sat, Dec. 4th, 2004 08:33 pm (UTC)
Re: as always, it is a pleasure to read your Journal

Thank you very much!


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