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Sun, Jul. 25th, 2004 12:30 am
A Long Time Coming...

Well, I know it's been a while since I last posted something of significance. Since my long philosophical post (which I wouldn't be surprised if no one read it) I've basically been posting memes and poetry... not that it's that bad, but I felt I should put something up of a little more worth, in a readable fashion.

The last couple weeks have been rather dreary for me. Aside from Tracy's birthday, I've basically been stuck in the house for far too long. I did see The Bourne Supremacy yesterday, though. Not that thrilled about it (especially with the shaky camera movements, which gave me a headache). It was weak compared to the first one.

Anyway... yeah, I'm pretty much stuck here glued to the internet (because it's my only contact with the outside world right now) and Roller Coaster Tycoon. It's a really good game, but the version I have won't load any saved games. It crashes the moment I try. Grr... Right, so that's another tangent....

I'm really anxious for school to start. I'm so very much getting stir-crazy. Not only will I have my own room again (here's hoping) and I'll have a schedule, but I'll not have that isolated feeling I always have during vacations. I've never had a place where I've set down roots, so I don't have friends or even acquiantences outside of school. So, when vacations come, I feel left behind because everyone goes home and spends time with all their non-school friends.

I suppose what makes it worse for me is that I can't justify asking people to spend time with me. Once I do, I no longer feel like people are spending time with me because they want to, but because I asked them to. It's a fun little "Catch 22".

Speaking of "Catch 22s", my life seems to be filled with them. The things that I really want and in most cases need from people, I can't ask for because it would defeat the purpose or cheapen it somehow. For example, I can't ask for someone's friendship (as much as I may need it) because friendship should be something that's freely given, but if that someone doesn't know I need it, then how is that someone supposed to know to give it to me. Friendship, in the example, can be replaced with just about anything else that I usually complain about...

Okay. I'm done here... </rant>

Current Mood: anxious anxious
Current Music: "Awakened Fears of the Gerudo" -Daniel Baranowsky

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houseofslay
houseofslay
Alyxe
Mon, Jul. 26th, 2004 07:30 am (UTC)

whoa...!!! I'm sorry, I was just going around livejournals, aaaaand I saw your picture. Did you ever go to A+C?


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abadoss
abadoss
Kenneth Edward Keyn
Mon, Jul. 26th, 2004 01:39 pm (UTC)

Yeah, I graduated from it last year.


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